Friday, March 28, 2008
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Last night we touched on Chapter Four - "Role Playing: The Many Faces of the Ego". I've always found role playing fascinating. One of the most universal roles we play is the role of the parent. The most important question you can ask yourself is: "Are you able to fulfill the function of being a parent and fulfill it well, without identifying with that function, that is, without it becoming a role?" It's when a parent becomes an identity, the function easily becomes overemphasized, exaggerated, and takes you over. You become controlling, overbearing. Even when the child is now 40 years old, parents can't let go of the notion "I know what's best for you". Parent define themselves by that role and are unconsciously afraid of loss of identity when they cease being parents. It's always easy to look around you and see that mother who tells her child she knows best. Or to see a friend who is so identified with being a mom that she even has a bumper sticker telling the world this. But, hopefully, what the book will do for me is give me a better understanding of not just others, but myself.
There was something else that really did resonate last night. I wrote about an experience I recently had with a doctor. The funny thing, Oprah said she recently had the same experience where she felt "dismissed". But what Echart discussed about role playing really made sense of this experience for me. When doctors become too identified with a role - they're trapped. My not feeling acknowledged was a result of his being trapped in his role. But when a doctor can put his role aside, and BE with a patient, that makes hime a better doctor. When you can be, you're making the other person feel acknowledged, listened to and important.
I know Eckhart Tolle had written another book called "The Power of Now". Many people were already familiar with Eckhart because this book was a #1 New York Times Bestseller with over 2 million copies sold. I guess I've found the next book I'll be reading. This spring, as new life appears on trees and from the earth, I'll be doing some digging as well. We never know what lies ahead. So what seemed like a simple conversation between me and my sister, has blossomed into something else. I feel myself being led to where I need to go.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Friday, March 21, 2008
Thursday, March 20, 2008
It's causing twisted ankles, broken bones, scuffed knees, bruised faces all in the name of fashion. There have been more serious accidents as well. You can read more information about this here. What's next, stilts???
So ladies, if Manolo's are being sold in Japan, I guess they'd be considered the new "flats"! Mind-boggling!
Sigh . . . OK - I'm really going to go grab that vacuum now . . . after I sand a few beads.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
I had a past experience with another gastro doctor over 20 years ago. He managed to be able to help me when another doctor could not. This doctor's name (or a form of it) somehow entered my consciousness at the right time - when I was paying attention. I had only used him once and had to think really hard to remember his name as it was unusual. I went online and googled how I thought it was spelled and up he popped! I decided I would give his office a call. I felt if anyone could figure this out - he could. When I called his office, I asked if he did these procedures. I was happy to hear he did. I set up an appointment and met with him. We talked for about 30 minutes or so going over history. But during that appointment, he said something to me that really stuck with me. He said - "you know, I have patients that I've seen for many, many years. Sometimes I get patients like you, who come to me, I treat them, they leave and then I never see them again. I always wonder what happened to them? I wonder how they're doing, how their health is and how their life is. So tell me, what have you been doing for the past 20 years?" I proceded to tell him I was married w/children, etc. I told him how I was so thankful he had been able to previously help me before when another doctor couldn't. He acknowledged that doctors are given so much power. But sometimes, they don't always have the answers. They don't always know what would be the best approach. Who knows, maybe they use their gut or maybe they don't even pay attention to it. But I knew with him, I'd found someone who did.
During this appointment, he told me how there have been articles written over the past two years specifically about fasting vs. not fasting. There were a number of doctors who were from the school of thought that it might be better not to fast. He said he felt this would be the case with me. So we came up with a plan of action, and set the appointment up. As I left his office, he shook my hand and said - "we're going to do this." I felt confident we would. He can't imagine how that made me feel. I felt cared for, empowered, and in control.
Yesterday, before the procedure, he shared with me a recent article he had read. He said it made him think of my previous experiences. It was about a guy who worked out at a gym and was having all kinds of muscle problems. But no one could figure out why. He lived with this for years. It wasn't until recently, they discovered he had some sort of muscular disorder. There was a name for it. He then told me that he knew at some point in time, they will have a name for what I have. Someday.
We, as patients, are in the hands of our doctors and trust that they will take good care of us. This is not always the case. I'm not blaming the other doctor, he was just doing the best job he could with the patient load he has. I was very lucky to have found Dr. Aserkoff - again. He is a doctor who truly cares about his patients. He couldn't necessarily solve the big mystery as to why my body reacted the way it did, but he listened and managed to come up with a plan. He's compassionate and the kind of person who makes a great doctor. I find myself reflecting on how he came into my life. Two brief moments in time. But brief moments can also be very powerful. Sometimes we doubt, don't hear or don't pay attention to that little voice. They are the whispers of the universe. We have to learn to pay attention and trust our gut. Whether it's about doctors or some other situation in life - are you listening?
Monday, March 17, 2008
Friday, March 14, 2008
And here's one of my favorites.
Scroll through their website - I'm sure you'll get lots of ideas for retro canes !
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Friday, March 7, 2008
How about now? Yeah, I thought you would! A nice new texture plate! After cleaning it, I dried it and let it sit overnight.
I added a few coats of Liquitex varnish so that nothing gross could get on the clay.
And here's the result of the burned pot technique! Cool, eh? Now . . . if only I had a licorice caramel, life sure would be grand!
I see that Polymer Clay Productions has a new podcast up. It's about the artists they met in Baltimore, panel discussions, the Synergy Gallery, interesting conversations, and yes, new products. To listen in, click here.